Thursday, January 21, 2016

I know it probably doesn't matter to most of you but as you probably know by now, I am a deep thinker. I am a deep feeler.  I'm always either thinking or feeling. 

I sorta loved the idea of social media and the internet at first because I've never really had to opportunity to know what it's like to get the kind of love and acceptance and support that the rest of the world does with my offline family and friends.

Being an HSP/Empath is not real to many people and the expectations are that I should be non-highly sensitive and non-empathic. I guess these are valid expectations for the closed minded. But there are just some things that a person can't change about themselves.

I wouldn't want to change for anyone else if I could. It's not really fair to ask me to. I know I have high expectations and I'm extremely passionate about growth and learning not only for myself but for others.  But I believe the disconnect is when others expect me to lower my standards to meet them where they are.

If I were to be like most people I would have to be more callous. I would have to be more uncaring. That would be going the wrong direction for me.  If others were to try to meet me where I am, they would learn to be more loving, they would learn to be more open.  That seems to me more like the direction a person would want to grow...

I don't have a family that treats me like the person that I am. I don't have friends that treat me like the person that I am. I understand there is an arrogance factor and I understand there is an ignorance factor but I still think everyone could do better.

Psychologists have been finding out in their research that connection with others is very much needed for not only human survival, but for thriving. But I can't control what others want and how they want to interact with me. I don't want to, I'm simply saying that it's not my business to.

I know one of my biggest flaws is giving people more credit than they are worth and not only that, giving them too many chances to rectify harmful mistakes towards me.